We are all addicted to something that takes away the pain.

“My kid can’t smoke, I know her , she’s clean.”

Well no parent wants to accept the bitter truth or come to acceptance that their kid is probably into drugs .

Kids that use drugs, smoke and drink are more likely to have parents who’ve used cannabis

This is not entirely true because I know people whose parents never even seen how weed looks like but still they are caught in daze and disappointment that their own bloodline is. Well let us see what’s all the buzz about.

Marijuana is usually rolled and smoked like a cigarette (joints or doobies), or put in hollowed-out cigars (blunts), pipes (bowls), or water pipes (bongs). Recently, it has become increasingly popular for people to inhale marijuana or stronger marijuana extracts using a vaporizer (called “vaping” or “dabbing”). Some people mix it into food or brew it as a tea.

Long-Term Effects

Research has found that people who use marijuana over a long period of time can have more lasting side effects. For example:

Changes in the brain. Marijuana can affect the parts of the brain that play a role in our ability to remember, multitask, and pay attention.

Fertility issues. Animal studies suggest that using a lot of marijuana might be linked to decreased sperm count in men and delayed ovulation in women. Pregnant women who use marijuana might be more likely to have babies with developmental and behavioral problems.

Respiratory problems. People who smoke marijuana a lot can develop problems with the respiratory system — like more mucus, a chronic cough, and bronchitis.

Immune system problems. Using marijuana a lot might make it harder for the body to fight off infections.

Emotional problems. People who use a lot of marijuana are more likely to say they notice signs of depression or anxiety. If someone has a condition like schizophrenia or bipolar disorder, marijuana can sometimes make symptoms worse.

There is more than what I might have been able to gather. The truth is, as much as we are ignoring the, fact that weed is or might be a danger , it still remains the truth. Many countries have been on the run to legalize the consumption of weed. Marijuana is legal in more than 12 countries in the world. In 2018, Canada became one of the countries alongside Uruguay, Australia, and the Netherlands to legalize marijuana for medical and recreational purposes. Many states in the US including California, Colorado, Ohio, and Nevada have legalized marijuana.

But all in all, everything that has a disadvantage has an advantage to help maintain the balance. Apart from the medicinal purpose of it, I can’t fully highlight it’s benefits , if you might know,kindly, share with the curious ones like me.

N.O 👣☯

That Place 🌏🌎

“You make the world a better place by making yourself a better person,” said the man named Scott Sorel. In today’s modern world and the times, everything is constantly improving and seems to be even bigger at astonishing speed. This includes attitudes towards themselves, others, and the world. Many people feel dangerous and malicious about their physique and overall value and they are not touched with others. One word from Scott Sorrell is that you can make the world a better place for yourself and others by changing attitudes and positive attitudes.

So you want to make the world a better place. You hear the word “international development” and you intuitively know that it matches your ambition to build a career and a life – it’s important.

N.O 👣☯

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If you asked a random person on the street “what is a good person?” or “what is the good life?” you would likely receive a different answer from everyone. These answers would be different because everyone has their own ideas and opinions of what the answers should be. For many, a good person is someone who lives a good life, is a Christian, or someone who helps other individuals. For some, a good person might be someone who puts others first and someone who is reliable.

“Everyone has inside of him a piece of good news. The good news is that you don’t know how great you can be! How much you can love! I believe that you can find goodness in other people if you just look deep down. And all those people trying to improve, are changing the world step, by step.

But you know, I can’t think of a better way to spend your life. I mean, what’s life for if not finding yourself and trying to become the best, most genuine version of you that you can be?

N.O👣☯

Happy ! 🦋🦋

Even the best of friends can fill you with tension and make you sick. Why does friendship so readily turn toxic?

Think of a time when you sat across from a friend and felt truly understood. Deeply known. Maybe you sensed how she was bringing out your ‘best self’, your cleverest observations and wittiest jokes. She encouraged you. She listened, articulated one of your patterns, and then gently suggested how you might shift it for the better. The two of you gossiped about your mutual friends, skipped between shared memories, and delved into cherished subjects in a seamlessly scripted exchange full of shorthand and punctuated with knowing expressions. Perhaps you felt a warm swell of admiration for her, and a simultaneous sense of pride in your similarity to her. You felt deep satisfaction to be valued by someone you held in such high regard: happy, nourished and energized through it all.

Forgiving is not the same as forgetting. While we must always forgive, there are times when we must not forget. Forgive and forget implies that we exonerate the one who has offended us and never again call to mind their actions. But forgetting is different. Forgetting passes over what happened and can be a form of denial. This can be dangerous to both ourselves and the person who has committed the offense. How? Because the reality is that very often the offense will be repeated.Learn to walk away, let them down slowly, cause we all have choices and among theirs, they did not see it necessary to chose you. Respect your self and respect their choices.

N.O👣☯

No Rain, No Rainbow.

Losing a loved one is like having the rug swept from under you.

We make plans for the day, and do not think twice about how those plans can be taken away in the blink of an eye. I never thought much about it myself, until I was faced with the shock, and undeniable truth of losing a couple of people close , very close. I do not think anyone really thinks about tragedy until they are actually faced with shocking news. It is amazing how we take life for granted. The tragedy never goes away. You just learn how to cope with it and keep moving on.

One of the most common fears is the fear of losing someone who is close to you. The drama caused by such events make impressions on a person that can last a lifetime. Many people spend years mourning a death. There’s, 86,400 seconds 1,440 minutes, and 24 hours in a day. Nobody
knows when they’ll die so they might as well live it up.

The world seems to stand still when you are told. That feeling you have never felt before, of total sadness. You feel faint and dazed as if you are falling or dreaming. You were told this was going to happen, but you could never be prepared for it. You don’t know what to say, you are totally speechless. You burn up, feel dizzy but no tears will come. You have to get out of there, to escape, runaway anything to make this feeling fade. You just don’t want to believe it had happened after everything. Part of you wants to cry your heart out and the other part wants to hit something with the anger that raging inside you.

Grief is a natural response to loss, It is like living two lives… One is where you pretend that everything is “Alright”, and the other is where your heart silently screams. It’s the emotional suffering you feel when something or someone you love is taken away. Often, the pain of loss can feel overwhelming. You may experience all kinds of difficult and unexpected emotions, from shock or anger to disbelief, guilt, and profound sadness

Drop that ego, that pride, text them , call them up, don’t wait to lose them and call them to confirm whether what you heard is true or if you were too late, if you were not on time. Because those we love never truly leave us , there are things that death can never touch.

N.O👣☯

It’s never too late to make a fresh start with God.

Today being a Sunday, I woke up pretty early. I think the holy spirit woke me and led me straight to my Bible. Well, I din’t get why it was the first thing I took. Read a verse{ Philippians 4;6} , I even saw some names in the Bible I never new existed! Did some 2 sums on advanced quadratic expressions. Went back to sleep for around 5 minutes.

Due to CoViD and all, we don’t go to Church, instead, we watch live streaming on youtube but today we was watching it on KTN. So this Bishop, I believe he is John Owaa Oballa, I’m not sure was leading the mass. {I’m not a religious person, I’m just a believer} I paid attention for the first 4 minutes, then my thoughts drifted, I begun questioning my spiritual being. I’v e been so absorbed in my emotional and physical growth that I forgot the one that matters most. Where did my faith lie,? Where did I go astray? I mean, I don’t mean to say am saved but with Nolan around I’ve been moving closer to God. I have several favorite worship songs in my playlist, something which if I’d have done before would have felt odd.

To be honest, God has been very patient with me, with all of us. Let us be honest. A while back, I forgot to go to the salon. It was around 10.pm at night. So dad decided to take me. Luckily, we found one stall open. The guy agreed to do my hair quickly because he was also in a hurry. Dad was scrolling down his phone, he felt as if the guy was slow, so he requested for the machine and tell you what he did something he never done before, he did my hair. To my surprise, he did it quiet well. All these because he was impatient. He could not wait, just like some of us are impatient with God. I admit it was fun and we laugh about it till date. When am going to the salon, I usually make a joke and tell him to tag along cause I might be late, he should come and rush the process.

Right now, we are all patient, for the vaccine to be established, to go back to school, to jump back to that project, to start over. We are all patient for tomorrow. The day after tomorrow. Give yourself time, let God give you time.

N.O👣☯

gOOd NiGHt 👑🦋

I never thought about how painful it would be. The moment I realized that my best friend was actually not my best friend anymore.

I didn’t want to believe that we had grown apart — to think about that fact that we hadn’t seen each other in almost a month’s time. I didn’t want to believe that she hadn’t asked me once in the last 2 weeks how I was doing. But it was true, I was just no longer a priority to her anymore. Strong friendships are very important to our well being, and way more than we might realize. No one wants to feel like they’re alone, and that’s a feeling I’ve become way too familiar with.

Little did I realize how much effort it takes to actually keep a friendship going nowadays, and how exhausting it would become to be the only one making an effort.


I hung onto this friendship for a year and a month or so, after I realized it was dissolving. I would text her even though I didn’t expect her to text back, and I would try to make plans even though I knew her response would be “sorry, I’m busy.” If someone wants to talk to you, they’ll return your calls.

A best friend is someone who always guides you to the right way and teaches you right thing. You don’t have to share the same hobbies or love the same poem. They will tell you openly if you are wrong. They don’t judge you and always want the best for you. They always look for the goodness inside you. A best friend knows when you are sad or depressed. They gladly let you take out fumes on them and bear with your unreasonable and arrogant behavior. And yet they forgive you. They never resent you. A best friend is like a poem, always fresh and pleasant. You don’t have to be in touch everyday for feeling the connection. And even then you will know your best friend is the one person who will be there for you even at a moment’s notice. You know you can always count on your best friend, be it for your secret, for some help or for lending the ears. A best friend will always be there, no matter what, no matter when. The love between the two best friends doesn’t need anything to stay alive. It just stays there, irrespective of the conditions or situations. Even if you meet after a decade, have written letter or not, you will always pick up where you two left off. Such is the love between the best of friends.

Some people aren’t loyal to you, they are loyal to their need of you. Once their need changes, so does their loyalty.

It can be one of the hardest things in life to lose your best friend.

Sometimes you have to give up on people. Not because you don’t care, but because they don’t.

We’re not close anymore, but I’ll be here if you need me cause to me true friendship isn’t about being there when it’s convenient, it’s about being there when it’s not. Because I no longer have the energy for, forced interactions, or unnecessary conversations. Reason being , strong friendship doesn’t need daily conversations; Doesn’t always need togetherness. As long as the friendship lives in the heart, True friends will never part. But we gon’ do it your way, lets ignore each other, pretend the other one doesn’t exist cause deep down we both know it was not supposed to end like this.

N.O👣☯

If it doesn’t nourish your hair or soul, let it go!

Today, my workout partner noticed I was off key, not jumpy as everyday, so we had one of those heart to heart talks. {We have them like everyday, but weeh, this one popped stupidity out me😂😪 }

She says your heart controls your entire system, it coordinates with you brain, lately mine has been leading me in somewhat confused direction. Let’s face it. Many of us choose to hang on to things that at some point have hurt us, angered us, made us feel sad, or depressed us. If we choose to hang on to them, we will never move forward and we could even create physical or medical damage to our bodies.

Think of it this way: you’re on a hiking trip and along the way you keep picking up heavy objects, things that really don’t serve you. After a while, these objects begin to slow you down and unless you get rid of them, you’ll never complete your trip.The next step is to create an action plan, the past is over. Where do you want to go now and how, do you plan to get there? You may not have the answers but merely thinking about the options forces your mind to go in a new direction and you automatically let go of unwanted feelings and emotions.  Take a look around you and appreciate those things that you once thought were trivial. When you are here now you can be nowhere else. You are not hanging on to something, you are here now. I know some of you may say the following: “But Nick, where I am right now really sucks, I don’t want to think about it.” It only sucks because you’re looking at all the negative things going on. Focus on a few of the positive things anything from nature to the wonderful family  you may have.

Love, no matter how hard you find it, it will remain invisible, no matter how hard you try, you won’t get it. But when your about to give up, it comes.Sometimes, the love we are looking for is right in front of us- too close for the eyes to see. There are things you like to hear but you can never hear them from the person who says it with his heart.Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

Sometimes, no matter how much we try to avoid it, life hurts us. The very nature of being human is to feel, to experience life, and with that comes the ebb and flow of pleasure and pain.

A few weeks ago, I realized that love ain’t as easy as I had always pictured it. I’m easy to love buh It’s hard for me to trust you love or care about you until both my brain and heart agree on it. But nope, love is when you’d do anything for that someone and deal with all the problems and fights that happen between you guys because you love them because if they leave you or “break you heart’ then they never loved you.

I believe the things that come with or you have to do with love are the things that really hurt. Because love is beyond just the sexual aspect but also when you never want to leave that person and no matter what goes down between you guys you would stay with them and fight for them because you love them, so the thing that really hurts is trying to have 2 people in one life and doing what they want to do at the same time doing what you want to do.

I once read somewhere that moving on doesn’t mean you forget about things. It just means you accept what happened & continue living because you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to how they used to be. You have to know that when people treat you like they don’t care believe them.Maybe one day , I’ll have what you need but don’t wait too long, because maybe that day you’ll want me, is the day I’ll have finally given up.

How people treat you is their Karma, how you react to theirs,is yours.

N.O👣☯

She wants a flat tummy,a flat tummy!!😎

Happy May ya’ll🤗😎.

Well, let’s drift from the silly emotions for a while 🥱. That first picture is my friend Kaicy,

{ Not really her name, she used to have tons of cases when we was kids, so I named her }

we been friends since I can remember. Well, I can’t even remember. So, when we were kids, we all used to have this big stomachs , you would actually think she was pregnant 😂. Now look at her, all flat like some flat around my place. My cousin has lately been on a mission of tummy trimming. After a 4 weeks of daily routine workouts, she only lost 2 kg’s . She was expecting to lose like 10 kg’s, crazy, I know I know. I have a feeling am also beginning to grow a tummy, Nolan thinks am making fun of her situation and so I’ve been joining her during her workouts, funny enough, I enjoy skipping rope, I can skip 150 jumps non-stop, she can only go to 100. So instead of having my thighs and joints pains, tell you what, my butt has been painful for the last 3 days😂. Nolan says I should stop cause by the end of it, I’ll be as flat as her laptop. But I told her we are in this together, I will also lose the tummy I supposedly don’t have. I was thinking of beginning a diet routine but I hardly eat so it won’t be of much help.

The second picture is what Nolan has been drooling over. She said no more wheat funny enough, she takes mandazi’s, she says she doesn’t like them hot . Am just asking but is maandazi not wheat ? She has also been thinking of intermittent fasting . I would not fast for my body, babe, let’s fire up and blow, I’d rather do it for my soul 😪. So today we was out on evening runs, we just started today, not more than one mile and she wanted to walk back! She has this great body, nice hips,better butt than mine but she also got a belly to support her, to stand in for the upper part of her body, her “thorax” I mean.

I would not advice her to give up but I would advice her to give in, into all the exercises, be committed, don’t get tired, I was actually thinking of doing squats, she said they enhance some part of the body, I know you know it. But am too lazy,so dearest Nolan, you come too far, 4 weeks! of not eating what you like

#Quarantine body, #tummy trimming, # Cousin goals. She has this stuck up in our bedroom everywhere 😂🤦‍♀️

Turns out am not good at encouraging people in relation with food, come on, I can’t possibly tell you to stop eating eating what you like, I’ll just end up laughing at you.

I know all of us have different body types but what would you have Nolan do?

N.O👣☯

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It’s around 10.am now, it’s raining so loud I can barely hear my heart beat inside my chest. Try to visualize it. I’ve been jamming on some breakup song “Naogopa-Rayvanny” since the genesis of CoViD-19. Try listening to it sometime later, I was even thinking of adding some new lines I felt he left out. The rain stops for a minute, two minutes, then it comes back stronger than before. I can actually relate to the break it took, the rain I mean. It was all too much that it had to break from it just for a while. My emotions have lately been raining hard on me. Big heart like my mama’s, I love like my pops’, I forgive like my sister, I care like my brother and get weird like my lil’ sister. Buh what do I really do like me?  Finding myself is the hardest task I been tryna complete lately. I don’t know if you already found you but when you do, be proud of yourself, it’s not something easy. Brooke says “Give yourself time”. I have lately been giving it to people who I thought needed me round, needed my time, buh I think I offered enough of it, they found something better, someone worth theirs . It’s ok not to be ok, it’s ok to be immune to hurt, it’s ok it is always ok. Once when I was still a kid, I was like 12, mum was making lunch and we had disagreed on something I didn’t like. So, she sent me to get some kales from “mama Mary”. We had not gone to church that Sunday and with all the drama from home, I decided that day I was gon leave, go and never come back, be alone, forget I had a family.

Stupid and naïve I left , after walking for about 6 hours, with nowhere to go, I decided to walk back home. I went back, from the one place I was running away from, from my blood, from everything, I was only 12, buh now it’s been 6 years and I don’t want to get away from it all I want to stay and watch everything, see the end of it and see the new dawn of yet another transformation, I want to meet people, I want to know how to broken feels like, I want to learn all the tricks. I keep trusting, I keep believing and I keep hoping that one day, the right person is   gon show up, is gon treat me right, is not gon do me dirty and rub it in my face, but that person is me, I’m the only person , But only if I’d find me, I’d not ask too many questions.  There are things that happen that makes us feel powerless, insignificant, but that’s just it, they are just feelings. Sometimes we got to stop feeling and start doing, sometimes we lose track of time in the dark.

Did I not weep for him whose day was bad? Was my soul not grieving for the poor? Buh when I looked for good, evil came and I waited for light , darkness came. My heart is not in turmoil,  neither is it in regret ,my days of affliction just came to meet me. I go about blackened, buh not by the sun. What would  be my portion from God above. Does not calamity befall the unrighteous? Does he not see my ways? Surely are they wicked?

N.O👣☯