I LOVE YOU😕✨❤🥴

HER – Miiiiiiiiiiinnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee💀💀❤💕

ME – 🥴🥴 How you doing?

HER – Typing…

ME – Am having a very lonely night

HER – …Typing

ME – It’s really cold

HER – …Typing

ME – Why sure, why not

HER – …Typing

ME – Of course I LOVE YOU

ME – Call me?

6 HOURS LATER…🥴🥴

US – Good night 🦋❤❤

Hi!

That’s how it all started, with {Hud- How u doin’} sometimes. We used to snap, then she asked for my number. Well we had grown trust over hours, days, weeks, months, years to come. You ever felt connected to someone? Ours was gradual not instant🤡😎

Sooooo… I gave her my number.

Whatsapp worked better than snap, that’s where I told her my real name. I think we got attached. The fact that she lives 11 hours from my place, hasn’t stopped us. I mean, she was just perfect, I couldn’t stop myself from catching feelings.Feelings, bro, sigh 😪. This are things we can’t hide, we can’t fight and go through hell to get over. Nicole and I are like 2 in one, I don’t want to say too much cause I want her to be my lil’ secret.

There was a point where we both just wanted to know that we had each other.

Now we’ve been together for like for the longest time I can remember and yeah we’ve gone through some stuff but there was never a moment of moment where my love for her ever decreased
Like through all the arguments we went through
We always try our best to get through it
Yeah…. we always work stuff out, I wouldn’t want anyone to have

But I kinda couldn’t stop myself from catching feels 🥴
And like she is just so amazing like I really couldn’t ask for anyone else
Like her personality… Damn🥵
Her smile 🥵
Her laugh 🥵
Her good heart like
Daaaammmmmmnnn 🥴🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

Damn!She’s just amaiiiiiziiiing!!!!!

#It’a my Lovestory

#Blacklivesmatter

#All lives matter

Stay safe

Say you won’t let go✨😕

N.O👣☯

SEEN…

Sunday, Dear Lord,

Yes, I really wasn’t planning on posting anything sooner or later, it sucks that I’m trying so much, it really feels like shit, waiting on a train that’s left . Waiting, still waiting, I barely have the words, cause right now I don’t know why am” always like this”, I don’t know what words to use cause I’m afraid of being judged, while it’s the last thing I ever want to do to someone else. I stopped for a a while so that she don’t think “otherwise”, so that I don’t ruin this newly found happiness,

I’m really good at this, I can’t believe it. In your own weird way you say, Mark says we are all weird at some point, am not God, am no angel, deep down, it feels like my hope doesn’t want to grow, what can I say, I sigh, feels like my energy doesn’t want to recharge , how I wish I could delete all of my demons and release all of my pain, it’s not about the size of your circle, it’s the loyalty that’s in it.

Look , yes you, I know you had their back, when nobody else didn’t , I know you stood by their side, when everybody else left , but you have to understand that this is about life, just because you did right by them, doesn’t mean they are gonna return the favor and do right by you. One thing you gotta understand in this world, is, not everybody else is gonna have a heart like yours, some people will let you down straight up.

Someone who care about you wanna see the happy you, not the hurt you .

Focus on the people who truly care about you so stop crying over somebody who is making someone else smile,stop chasing after the person who keeps breaking your heart over and over, they don’t cherish your heart. Your worth should be just more than feeling special sometimes,more than feeling appreciated sometimes,should more than just feeling loved sometimes. Stop settling for stand-by while your heart deserve to be treated first class

There is nothing wrong about you, so stop feeling it’s you, the heart that is meant to love you, will give you respect, the heart that is meant to love you, will make you feel special, the heart that is meant to love you, will appreciate you for you,embrace your flaws and not use them against you.

You need to place value to people who love you at your worst because, those are the people who deserve to be there at your best.

Just understand that you might not have it all together, but together, you have it all.

Cause you got to forget what you feel sometimes,and remember what you deserve cause why should you expect something different from a situation that hasn’t changed?

Why?

Because nobody can break your heart more than once, without your permission, cause you deserve to be honored like a privilege .

Yes, Nolan’s boyfriend was born today, happy birthday Frank, please make my cousin happy she , it’s the least she’d ask for what she deserves

Happy birthday Frank❤🤗

#Blacklivesmatter

#All lives matter

Stay safe

N.O 👣☯

Till Then I’ll wait❤👣

Hii there, I’ll wait, am patient, I still have a lot to live for, I know your somewhere, maybe even reading this, I seriously don’t know. I can’t deny I’ve had some before you. But it was just this one guy, we were both childish, I loved our weirdness though. We knew it would not go a long way but trust me, you won’t have to deal with heartbreaks and tantrums from my past .

I promise I’ll love you with everything, with my eyes, my ears, my nose, my arms, my legs my fingers. With my voice, my laugh, my attitude, my stubbornness, it won’t be easy cause am a nutcase. I hope you’ll be one too, so that we can fight and you kiss me back to reconciliation, hug me for a week, tie my shoelaces, wear your hoodies. I know it sounds silly but I’ll wait till then, I’ll have all the time in my hands in the world, we’ll be the priority me and you. bettering our future. Building a home for our little angels, I wish they have yoh eyes{ I don’t even know how yours look like but I’ll know when I look right into them} but also have my big heart, I pray for your safety, as I keep me safe.

I really don’t care how we’ll meet, I don’t really care how broke you’ll be we’ll build our home, our empire me and you together, I’m making it sound like some fantasy but in my head I’m really digging books for me and you, it’ll be this good, I promise cause yes I know we’ll fight but no fight will be bigger than us, I promise.

Black white, yellow, Muslim, Hindu Catholic ,that don’t really matter.

I’ve really been questioning your existence. This is actually not the right time, so I’ll wait till then I’ll wait cause it’ll be our LOVE STORY

#Love story

#Blacklivesmatter

#All lives matter

Stay safe

I LOVE YOU, I PROMISE

N.O👣☯❤

C-O-MM-U-I-CAT-E . Talk To Me, Not At Me 🤷‍♀️

Social dynamics is a term stemmed from the idea of the change in the behavior of an individual due the influence of those around him or her in a group or at an individual level. Communication today is one of the most important skill, not everyone is a good communicator and faces the side effects of not being able to communicate well. Surviving in the world today you must know the proper to act when in a public setting. If you are unable to communicate properly. You may be cast as an out-cast. The social dynamics help you gauge what kind of behavior is acceptable in what setting. You cannot behave in the same manner wherever you go. For instance if you go to a formal meeting you need to follow the decorum of the meeting and behave keeping in mind all the etiquette’s and mannerisms. However, if you go to your best friend’s place for a slumber you must not behave like the way you behaved in the office meeting. If you do so, your best friend might drag you to the hospital to get you checked if you are in your senses.

We learn to communicate from the moment we are born. We cry when we want attention, food and to get changed. Here are a few things that will help you communicate in a more effective way.

1.      Look at Attitude and Feeling

The attitude, behavior & body language in an individual’s conversation puts a lot of impact on the issue of the talk. The qualities of honesty, peace, optimism, culture, etc. elevate your temperament and improve your communication skills.

2.      Understand the Unspoken Words

While communicating there are some unspoken words like in the form of gestures, facial expressions, feelings, emotions etc. that put across the intentions of the individual easily. To understand these unspoken words helps to understand what the other person wants to say. In fact, these unspoken words are an integral part of social dynamics as it gives you a glimpse into the personality and thoughts of those who are communicating with you.

3.      Be aware of the changing environment

The world around you is changing constantly, and so are the people as every one of us are finding ways and means to adapt ourselves to these changes. With time, we recognize that we have changed and adapted to the changes in our environment.Noticing these changes can make it easier for you to come up with the right words while talking to your colleagues and using the right gestures to make them feel comfortable with you.

4. Learn to listen

Listening is the best way to communicate. A good listener is a good communicator. When you pay close attention and listen to what a person has to say you are able to learn a lot of thing you wouldn’t have had if you didn’t listen attentively. In an argument most people do not listen and keep saying what they want that gives the fire more fuel. If you first listen to what the other person has to say, you might as well understand the point. If not then you might be able to respond in a better way and give your input properly. If we develop the habit of listening to others our communication skills will drastically improve.

5. Pay Attention To The Body Language

Body language is considered to be the 70% of every conversation. Most people are unaware of the phenomenon that we converse more with our bodies rather than our mouths. We use the gift of able bodies to assist what our mouth is saying. Body language includes the stature, hand gestures, facial expressions and even the pitch and tone of your voice. Each of them impact what you are saying. The same sentence can sound different if you say it in different tones. Body language is what puts the life in our sentences. We can use our body language to imply things that our mouth is not uttering.

Listening is the utmost part for developing the communication skills.Effective communication skills give you the ability to relate with others on an interpersonal level. But we tend to run into trouble when our lines of communication get crossed. Misunderstandings arise as a result of miscommunications. communication takes place any time there is a sender, a message, and a receiver. The form of message can take many forms, which is likely why we sometimes have difficulty interpreting what others are trying to communicate.

Effective communication skills increase ability to be heard and understood. They also increase the confidence and self esteem by empowering us to speak out. 

Work on it and save your drowning relationships, it’s just that simple, listen attentively and communicate where need be, it will work I promise🤗❤

Stay safe.

N.O👣☯

The Older I Get.

Just lay back, enjoy the music. Understand what the music says.

You matter.

You are loved.

Stop telling yourself you don’t matter, because I would move all hell for you.

I don’t even know you, and I can tell you that you are important.

I love you.

Now love yourself. You deserve to.

Stay safe.

N.O 👣☯❤

#You Broke Me First.

Well, I pulled some strings through my friend Tony {Lil Migo} who once pranked me that he was Kim Kadarshian looking for some skinny lady to appear in her music video, dumb, I know I know. Soo I did a small video and told him to send to friends and forward me the responses. The video was a simple question based on based on Tate’s song “Broke me first” that premiered this April. Here’s what they had to say.

It’s funny how people leave you and then when you’ve started to move on they come back suddenly and break you all over again….hmm funny how that works I suppose. -Karis

Never stay in someone’s life that will literally take advantage of you. Blocking you for everything… because you’re “ruining” their relationship” when I’m reality you were just being there for them.-Mandy

If someone truly treasures you, the last thing to do is treating you like shit…-   Kim. W

as someone who’s been in a toxic relationship it is hard to leave but when you finally do you fell great maybe not as soon as it happens but you will finally feel free so anyone who is in a toxic relationship please leave don’t let it get worse and don’t feel bad or let them manipulate you cause that’s how they get you to stay remember that they broke you first .- Jim

Yep. In order for a person to be reaping what they’ve sown, they would have had to have done it first. If you did it first, and then I do it to you worse, and then you try to out due me, it’s not even that type of ordeal. You’ve just turned love into a game. And a sad one at that.-Bruce. K

Damn I feel this like people they just walk right back into ur life and u except it they say “I’ve changed” yeah well we all know u haven’t they know what they are doing it hurts us when they feel nothing.- Kim

Most people would disagree with my choices, but I chose to take him back and he chose to take me back. And I couldn’t be happier. It really just depends on your situation, but we couldn’t afford to lose each other even when it seemed harder to continue. Maybe we’re toxic and I broke him first, but the love we feel now is surely worth the pain we felt then- Koria

I have tried to face every thing in my path. Still trying to fix the love I have for a woman toxic in addiction do to drugs but total bliss sober and loved every moment of it ..I miss you Lyndsey Robinson Smith-  Maddie

I can relate to this song, that shit really hurts 🙂 I was healing and start loving myself for within a year and that was my greatest accomplishment ❤-Chris

Since I’ve never been in a relationship I feel like this song really relates to my toxic friendship ending- Kylie

Thank you Lil ❤🤗for the favor .

Ya’ll did great! Thanks for cooperating, it’s good posting something from someone else, I’m glad it’s not about me this time.

Enjoy!

Stay safe

N.O👣☯

ALREADY ???

I never had anyone genuine in my life. They come, get me attached and leave. They don’t call me or text me to tell me they miss me or love me. It’s always the other way around. And it’s come to a point where I just felt like maybe I’m better off alone to the point that lockdown isn’t affecting me. So, cherish those who misses you, because some of us just don’t have anything.

Nothing hurts worse than realizing the reason that they left, was just because they stopped loving you. It makes you question the very value of love and hurts in a way that is unshakeable. It makes you look back on how long you tried to tell yourself that they still did…even though you could see they were slowly walking away. That’s my situation currently. And unfortunately, I see not light and the end of the tunnel. I put extreme amounts of effort in trying to get them back in my life, even though they don’t love me or I assume… I step on eggshells when I message them trying not to sound needy. I do many things to distract myself from texting them my feelings. Staying away from them is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. If only I could tell them it’s all     because I want them back, I want back who I knew before, am stupid for you. Even after it’s been long gone. I sacrifice my happiness just hoping to avoid being hurt again. Yet I am chasing the very person who changed on me. Knowing that it would result in the same hurt as before…. Sick of the cycles. I need relief. Does anybody feel the same way?

It’s okay if you are feeling disappointed. it’s OK to feel bad and it’s absolutely OK to miss some   old memories. respect your emotions not like anyone really cares 😅 but recently my best friend hasn’t been talking to me because her new “boyfriend” is her new priority in life. Whatever happened to “No one can take your place, no can can replace you” I liked it when you were my little secret . I really miss her but time is time, right? Friends come and go and that’s all I can say. I feel like I fucked up.  My depression tells me she’s gone and I know she is. 💔I miss the old me the one who used to smile all the time without faking it how she used to talk to strangers without being afraid of something bad happening, how she used to hang up pictures on her wall that weren’t sad and most of all I miss when she wasn’t depressed.

 Ever feel like you are trying but it’s a battle with your mind? You know what you need to do to yourself where you need to be but you can’t find it in you to do it. You know if you don’t do it things will fall but you just can’t do it. You don’t know why you can’t but you just can’t. You wanna fix it and you know how but you don’t even try. What does it mean?

And yes, my cat died, on new month’s eve, tragic I know, I even thought  he committed suicide that’s crazy  I know. Whatever that means I got an idea though it’s really simple, May I loved you my guy, but God loved you more, rest easy. No more cat’s no more May’s after you.

 Hope this month will be different 🤗cause it’s mid-year and I got to change something’s around here.

Happy New June ya’ll .

Stay safe.

N.O 👣☯

My Last Letter To You.

At times like this, am usually in my 5th dream or something but today I stayed up late helping my cousin finish a mat we were making. It’s 2 minutes to 2 am in the morning and I barely have sleep in my eyes. I suddenly remember I made a pact to respect myself and love my self enough to stop fights,keep my past past , to live with what I have now and work towards what I’ll want then . I am not a fun of Nollywood movies but we are watching one on YouTube right this very moment and one character has just lost her best friend. She died right in front of her, I swear I could feel the pain in her tears, it was so real, that, for minute I stopped , when my time comes, will I have done enough for me?, will it be worth it by then? Of course everyone griefs when another dies, it’s normal. But I’d rather not do it for you now, you are alive, you know what you want,what works works for you , what does not, what’s best for you and clearly I ain’t. We are all grown ups right now. Go for what you want, be with the people who want to be with you. I know someday, someone will want to keep me to themselves, be happy for having me and be afraid of losing me, I really don’t want this, fighting, throwbacks about stuff I forgot, nooooo , I don’t have the strength to, I really don’t.

N.O👣☯

When It Was Real🦋

As I take a seat beside my dad, the world seems so calm, everyone seems so concerned, relatives you never known, friends you never met, the love you never felt, buh I wake up to realization that it was all in my head. I liked it when it was real. When I really used to feel, when I could wake up in the morning with thought’s of getting you mad, asking if you fine and you would give honest replies, right now, it’s getting old, the same questions, same answers, nothing new, nothing to share, nothing to genuinely talk about, cold , warm, look-warm, hot, all this different reactions, I don’t know which one to actually pick as the realest. Sure reassurance hit’s when it’s least expected I had that a couple of times, a thousand I guess… But I want what works with me, for me and the people I’m gon’ come across. I don’t want to judge everyone and be afraid simply because we missed a step. I ain’t a saint, got my own fair share of flaws, I work on them on me, on a daily, not for anyone, but for me and my peace. I’m laying this down easy, I can’t fight myself. I can’t break my own heart cause maybe my idea of this is different from yours, retracing my footsteps back, hope I’ll find who I used to be.

N.O👣☯

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Who doesn’t love Travie Mccoy?

That’s besides the point😅

It’s a question that often plagues people after a painful break-up: What went wrong? As they work to figure out the answer, people typically create new relationship stories, analyzing the events leading up to the breakup and using them to build a cohesive narrative. In some cases, this type of storytelling can be positive, helping people to make sense of—and come to terms with—painful things that happen to them. Other times, though, the storytelling process can be a negative one, compounding pain rather than easing it.

Many stories are similar to the ones I’d heard from friends after their own breakups. The refrains were familiar:  “Why wasn’t I good enough?” or “Is there something wrong with me?” When people see ex-partners in new relationships, they often ask themselves: “What does she or he have that I don’t?”

While a new relationship will definitely help get over the past quicker, it is not a healthy way of dealing with rejection.

This isn’t just bad for you; you will be potentially hurting the other person’s feelings.

Give yourself time. Don’t start a new relationship when you still have unfinished emotional business.

N.O👣☯