Category: June❤

Close your eyes 😊.

Lately, I have been watching a lot of series during my free time. I don’t know why, but I tend to smile hard when the characters in the movie kiss, whether straight or gay. Sometimes I cover my eyes with my hands, like a kid, shy of watching adults getting intimate. Like when Arch and Veronica , Jughead and Betty from Riverdale do it, Henry and Patty from insatiable , Jace and Clarie from The Shadow hunters.

Nolan likes asking if High School in the States means just going to prom, kissing, having sex,going to parties and some homecoming stuff, doing drugs, getting into gangs , well, I can’t give her that answer but sure, it’s what we pretty much made to believe in almost all the TV shows and movies we been watching lately. At least they do most of all that.

I remember my friend from primary school once pecked me on the cheek behind the classroom door after lying to me that he wanted to tell me a secret and made me swear never to tell anyone, so I said “I promise”, I won’t tell no one, he told me to close my eyes, the next thing, I felt his lips on my right cheek, before I opened my eyes, he was gone, so I think that was my first kiss, I guess😂😂😊 . It was really romantic and all .And yes, I’ve never told no one out of the possible fifty who were in my class, see, am loyal😂

My second was when we had gone on this school educational tour, for lack of a better name, and my best friend kissed me on the forehead a couple f times, I don’t know but I think I loved all the couple of times😂🥴.

Sometimes , I wonder which girl is texting their other halves , they be like ,

“I love you your very special I will never Love anyone else I would rather be single and on my own. This heart beats for you and you alone my one and only forever and ever…”🥴🌹

or maybe guys be like telling their buddies how they messed up

“Learn from my mistake, I took for granted the person who loved me so much she had given me so many chances but all I did was hurt her again and again, I didn’t give her enough time, I was so busy with my life, focusing too much on my future that I forgot that I’m loosing her, we’ve been together for almost 9 years. And this song reminds me that I wish I could be the guy who can love her the way she loves me.” 😂 😔 😢

I got nothing against relationships but until I find that someone who treats me like I matter, who shows me that I’m worth being loved all the time, not just sometimes, worth being missed always, who’ll call back after getting a missed call to confirm whether my world was ending or if I’ve had water, if I can see well, someone who won’t mind keeping tabs on me always, someone who will always make time, who’ll not treat me like his plus one,one who’ll push all my buttons, annoy me, then make me smile after seconds, one who’ll say “I need space” after an argument cause no one said it’ll be easy, I know am making it sound like some fairy tale or some wild imagination but I know someone out there has all this flaws but still…still

When we finally find each other, all these imperfections won’t matter, because no one is perfect, absolutely no one. Someone who won’t be afraid of losing me cause you can never lose what was never yours, right?

Hang in there, there’s no rush, trust me 🌹.

I was thinking, do you remember your first kiss?🥴😂😂

#Black Lives Matter

#All Lives Matter

Stay safe

N.O 👣☯

Star gazing❤

Life is like playing a piano White keys are the happy moments Black keys are the sad ones ,

But as you play the piano, you realize black keys make music too.

Day time and flowers, Tunnels and showers

Wasting my hours Why did i let you go ?

Night time and towers, A love like ours

We stood here closer, But we’re far apart I know I’ve spent my days trynna feel the same in my own little ways I must be insane …

I’ve spent my days trynna play this game, in my old old ways ,fire got lost to rain

I fell in love with a girl she was out of this world I fell so hard ,but, now she’s out of my heart

I fell in love with a boy he got me all wired I fell so hard but now I know that I’m in control.

I know it’s mine to blame but ain’t this a game I’m bound to lose either way?

#Black Lives Matter

#All lives Matter

stay safe

N.O 👣☯

Why Do We Fall?

“Don’t promise When you’re happy ,

Don’t reply When you’re angry,

Don’t decide When you’re sad.”

All good things eventually come to an end, but the journey is what makes it worthwhile.

If you put your hand over your heart, you’ll feel a little something called a heartbeat. No matter how fast or slow, it’s there, and it’s a constant reminder that you were put on this world for a reason, that YOUR life matters, YOU’RE worth something. Don’t be afraid to make a difference. Dare to inspire yourself and those around you. YOU are a like a puzzle piece in this world; eventually, we all fit together to make one big puzzle that can change the world. Don’t give up. Remember to persevere. You matter.

Whenever I fall down…… I feel pain…

Whenever someone hurts me… I feel pain…

Whenever someone tells me, I’m not good enough…

I feel pain… And it hurts… and…I feel… sad.

But it’s not the pain that hurts… it’s me

The people that lost someone your not alone, to the people that are hated the people that are being hurt please understand your not the only one. Your perfect in many ways no matter shape or form no matter what religion you believe in your still human to me, the people that are getting bullied please read this be yourself . Don’t let them stand in your way just know your gonna do amazing in the future and I believe in you! To the people that lost someone understand that there is a better place to cry for them let them be a memory, they are always there for you no matter where you go. To the people that lie understand this lies don’t get you anywhere, to the people that are hurt note this: I know you done something stupid I have as well but you know that’s better than regret.

~ In you darkest time

~ Remember you hope

~ And you will be fine

~ In your sorrow

~ Rise, from the dark

~ Rise from your ashes

~ Rise through the sky

~ Rise through the sun

~ Always remember

~ That even the darkest cloud

~ Still have their golden part

How does one rise? The attainment to something great, the accomplishment of some heroic feat, The recognition of those around. In this world there are many who despite their best efforts have failed to accomplish what they would deem heroic, to attain to anything they would view as great, however I believe that the true meaning of this comes from within.It is the action of rising the resolve to not remain the same, a will to improve, to become better, to overcome the personal flaws we all face in our daily lives and to strive for a more perfect existence within our own conscience. We only know how far we have risen when we look down. A moment of clarity that shows us we are not what we were and not what we will become.

    Don’t grieve that the thing or people you love the most are gone. Be happy that it was there with you at some point of life

    In the darkest times when we think that nothing can be done, we hear the voice of God and he gives us strength to overcome our strongest and most powerful enemies, and then we realize that the battle wins not the strongest person, but person who believes in something who is stronger than you? God who created him, God who gave him so much, and then we see how wonderful God created the wonderful world.

    The darkest hour of the night is always just before the sun rises

    #Black lives matter

    #All lives matter

    Stay safe

    N.O 👣☯

    BEEN THERE, DONE THAT♿

    I love Wild n’ Out, cause there, you are just you, get roasted , but still be you, they joke bout yoh past, make you feel but still you have fun. That is the only place apart from the rap game where black people and white people get to joke about racism and still, them jokes hold the truth, and no one fight, well, they get heated once in a while but they never got physical . Nick being roasted time and again about Moriah, it made me think about this guy, I miss him though, but, he not worth it, well it was good while it lasted, we was stupid teens naming our kids before we had them, I don’t know how this will get to you but either way,

    Molly says she’s the dark poet, well it’s true cause her work is great💪💪🏽

    I thought I was ready for us though, that we was ready😌

    Right now, I realize I woulda been feeling the great heat🔥

    Although we both knew we was onto nothing🙄, but at least we was a thing😑 .

    Am grateful you offered something😏

    Well, you was living the lush life, but I was getting loffe 😞

    Everyday each day, until the last day🤢.

    Honestly, I was warned, but I knew even if you was playing🤔,

    deep down, you was genuine, that’s why I started climbing you like a bine 😤.

    I slowly started coming down when I realized, you was too good to be true🥴.

    No hard feelings, even though we don’t talk no more🙄

    Hope you grew some deep voice😏, if not, swallow yoh Adam’s apple🥱,

    CAUSE IT’S AN INSULT TO YOH NAME☺😊😊

    #Blacklivesmatter

    #All lives matter

    Stay safe

    N.O 👣☯

    So jammed🦋✨

    This is a rare screenshot of a conversation I been having ,these are literally the best lines I’ve heard this year

    You are my responsibility

    You know, you don’t always hear this from the people you expect, be grateful for the few who are there at your lowest, even when you can’t see well. Trust me, it feels really good, especially if your just complaining about nothing but they still listen to your nonsense and tell everything is OK.

    #Someonesomewherecares

    #Blacklivesmatter

    #All lives matter

    Stay safe

    N.O 👣☯

    I LOVE YOU😕✨❤🥴

    HER – Miiiiiiiiiiinnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee💀💀❤💕

    ME – 🥴🥴 How you doing?

    HER – Typing…

    ME – Am having a very lonely night

    HER – …Typing

    ME – It’s really cold

    HER – …Typing

    ME – Why sure, why not

    HER – …Typing

    ME – Of course I LOVE YOU

    ME – Call me?

    6 HOURS LATER…🥴🥴

    US – Good night 🦋❤❤

    Hi!

    That’s how it all started, with {Hud- How u doin’} sometimes. We used to snap, then she asked for my number. Well we had grown trust over hours, days, weeks, months, years to come. You ever felt connected to someone? Ours was gradual not instant🤡😎

    Sooooo… I gave her my number.

    Whatsapp worked better than snap, that’s where I told her my real name. I think we got attached. The fact that she lives 11 hours from my place, hasn’t stopped us. I mean, she was just perfect, I couldn’t stop myself from catching feelings.Feelings, bro, sigh 😪. This are things we can’t hide, we can’t fight and go through hell to get over. Nicole and I are like 2 in one, I don’t want to say too much cause I want her to be my lil’ secret.

    There was a point where we both just wanted to know that we had each other.

    Now we’ve been together for like for the longest time I can remember and yeah we’ve gone through some stuff but there was never a moment of moment where my love for her ever decreased
    Like through all the arguments we went through
    We always try our best to get through it
    Yeah…. we always work stuff out, I wouldn’t want anyone to have

    But I kinda couldn’t stop myself from catching feels 🥴
    And like she is just so amazing like I really couldn’t ask for anyone else
    Like her personality… Damn🥵
    Her smile 🥵
    Her laugh 🥵
    Her good heart like
    Daaaammmmmmnnn 🥴🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

    Damn!She’s just amaiiiiiziiiing!!!!!

    #It’a my Lovestory

    #Blacklivesmatter

    #All lives matter

    Stay safe

    Say you won’t let go✨😕

    N.O👣☯

    SEEN…

    Sunday, Dear Lord,

    Yes, I really wasn’t planning on posting anything sooner or later, it sucks that I’m trying so much, it really feels like shit, waiting on a train that’s left . Waiting, still waiting, I barely have the words, cause right now I don’t know why am” always like this”, I don’t know what words to use cause I’m afraid of being judged, while it’s the last thing I ever want to do to someone else. I stopped for a a while so that she don’t think “otherwise”, so that I don’t ruin this newly found happiness,

    I’m really good at this, I can’t believe it. In your own weird way you say, Mark says we are all weird at some point, am not God, am no angel, deep down, it feels like my hope doesn’t want to grow, what can I say, I sigh, feels like my energy doesn’t want to recharge , how I wish I could delete all of my demons and release all of my pain, it’s not about the size of your circle, it’s the loyalty that’s in it.

    Look , yes you, I know you had their back, when nobody else didn’t , I know you stood by their side, when everybody else left , but you have to understand that this is about life, just because you did right by them, doesn’t mean they are gonna return the favor and do right by you. One thing you gotta understand in this world, is, not everybody else is gonna have a heart like yours, some people will let you down straight up.

    Someone who care about you wanna see the happy you, not the hurt you .

    Focus on the people who truly care about you so stop crying over somebody who is making someone else smile,stop chasing after the person who keeps breaking your heart over and over, they don’t cherish your heart. Your worth should be just more than feeling special sometimes,more than feeling appreciated sometimes,should more than just feeling loved sometimes. Stop settling for stand-by while your heart deserve to be treated first class

    There is nothing wrong about you, so stop feeling it’s you, the heart that is meant to love you, will give you respect, the heart that is meant to love you, will make you feel special, the heart that is meant to love you, will appreciate you for you,embrace your flaws and not use them against you.

    You need to place value to people who love you at your worst because, those are the people who deserve to be there at your best.

    Just understand that you might not have it all together, but together, you have it all.

    Cause you got to forget what you feel sometimes,and remember what you deserve cause why should you expect something different from a situation that hasn’t changed?

    Why?

    Because nobody can break your heart more than once, without your permission, cause you deserve to be honored like a privilege .

    Yes, Nolan’s boyfriend was born today, happy birthday Frank, please make my cousin happy she , it’s the least she’d ask for what she deserves

    Happy birthday Frank❤🤗

    #Blacklivesmatter

    #All lives matter

    Stay safe

    N.O 👣☯

    The Older I Get.

    Our hugs showed me the art of building homes in people.🏡🦋

    Just lay back, enjoy the music. Understand what the music says.

    You matter.

    You are loved.

    Stop telling yourself you don’t matter, because I would move all hell for you.

    I don’t even know you, and I can tell you that you are important.

    I love you.❤

    Now love yourself. You deserve to.


    Stay safe.

    N.O 👣☯❤

    #You Broke Me First.

    Well, I pulled some strings through my friend Tony {Lil Migo} who once pranked me that he was Kim Kadarshian looking for some skinny lady to appear in her music video, dumb, I know I know. Soo I did a small video and told him to send to friends and forward me the responses. The video was a simple question based on based on Tate’s song “Broke me first” that premiered this April. Here’s what they had to say.

    It’s funny how people leave you and then when you’ve started to move on they come back suddenly and break you all over again….hmm funny how that works I suppose. -Karis

    Never stay in someone’s life that will literally take advantage of you. Blocking you for everything… because you’re “ruining” their relationship” when I’m reality you were just being there for them.-Mandy

    If someone truly treasures you, the last thing to do is treating you like shit…-   Kim. W

    as someone who’s been in a toxic relationship it is hard to leave but when you finally do you fell great maybe not as soon as it happens but you will finally feel free so anyone who is in a toxic relationship please leave don’t let it get worse and don’t feel bad or let them manipulate you cause that’s how they get you to stay remember that they broke you first .- Jim

    Yep. In order for a person to be reaping what they’ve sown, they would have had to have done it first. If you did it first, and then I do it to you worse, and then you try to out due me, it’s not even that type of ordeal. You’ve just turned love into a game. And a sad one at that.-Bruce. K

    Damn I feel this like people they just walk right back into ur life and u except it they say “I’ve changed” yeah well we all know u haven’t they know what they are doing it hurts us when they feel nothing.- Kim

    Most people would disagree with my choices, but I chose to take him back and he chose to take me back. And I couldn’t be happier. It really just depends on your situation, but we couldn’t afford to lose each other even when it seemed harder to continue. Maybe we’re toxic and I broke him first, but the love we feel now is surely worth the pain we felt then- Koria

    I have tried to face every thing in my path. Still trying to fix the love I have for a woman toxic in addiction do to drugs but total bliss sober and loved every moment of it ..I miss you Lyndsey Robinson Smith-  Maddie

    I can relate to this song, that shit really hurts 🙂 I was healing and start loving myself for within a year and that was my greatest accomplishment ❤-Chris

    Since I’ve never been in a relationship I feel like this song really relates to my toxic friendship ending- Kylie

    Thank you Lil ❤🤗for the favor .

    Ya’ll did great! Thanks for cooperating, it’s good posting something from someone else, I’m glad it’s not about me this time.

    Enjoy!

    Stay safe

    N.O👣☯