Sunday, Dear Lord,
Yes, I really wasn’t planning on posting anything sooner or later, it sucks that I’m trying so much, it really feels like shit, waiting on a train that’s left . Waiting, still waiting, I barely have the words, cause right now I don’t know why am” always like this”, I don’t know what words to use cause I’m afraid of being judged, while it’s the last thing I ever want to do to someone else. I stopped for a a while so that she don’t think “otherwise”, so that I don’t ruin this newly found happiness,
I’m really good at this, I can’t believe it. In your own weird way you say, Mark says we are all weird at some point, am not God, am no angel, deep down, it feels like my hope doesn’t want to grow, what can I say, I sigh, feels like my energy doesn’t want to recharge , how I wish I could delete all of my demons and release all of my pain, it’s not about the size of your circle, it’s the loyalty that’s in it.
Look , yes you, I know you had their back, when nobody else didn’t , I know you stood by their side, when everybody else left , but you have to understand that this is about life, just because you did right by them, doesn’t mean they are gonna return the favor and do right by you. One thing you gotta understand in this world, is, not everybody else is gonna have a heart like yours, some people will let you down straight up.
Someone who care about you wanna see the happy you, not the hurt you .
Focus on the people who truly care about you so stop crying over somebody who is making someone else smile,stop chasing after the person who keeps breaking your heart over and over, they don’t cherish your heart. Your worth should be just more than feeling special sometimes,more than feeling appreciated sometimes,should more than just feeling loved sometimes. Stop settling for stand-by while your heart deserve to be treated first class
There is nothing wrong about you, so stop feeling it’s you, the heart that is meant to love you, will give you respect, the heart that is meant to love you, will make you feel special, the heart that is meant to love you, will appreciate you for you,embrace your flaws and not use them against you.
You need to place value to people who love you at your worst because, those are the people who deserve to be there at your best.
Just understand that you might not have it all together, but together, you have it all.
Cause you got to forget what you feel sometimes,and remember what you deserve cause why should you expect something different from a situation that hasn’t changed?
Why?
Because nobody can break your heart more than once, without your permission, cause you deserve to be honored like a privilege .
Yes, Nolan’s boyfriend was born today, happy birthday Frank, please make my cousin happy she , it’s the least she’d ask for what she deserves
Happy birthday Frank❤🤗
#Blacklivesmatter
#All lives matter
Stay safe
N.O 👣☯
Coco👣 